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I get a CTScan every three months. It’s a requirement, along with an echocardiogram of the chemo med I am on. Thankfully technology allows me to see the results as soon as they are read. Normally I get my CT’s early in the day and the results are listed within a few hours. Yesterday’s CT…

I think I am a realist about most things. Facts are facts, and history does often repeat itself. This conversation with myself is not going in the direction you may expect. Having said all of that, why….. When I see myself walking by the mirror or on my camera I see a large woman. I…

Estrogen is not my friend It causes me many migraines I thought I was done with all this garbage a long time ago But no. The doctors keeps telling me that estrogen cream does not enter the blood stream But yet….here I sit blinded. Bastards.

Last night at not a real time o’clock I woke up with a muscle cramp in my calf. It was so bad the muscle (s) tensed up from the bottom of my foot all the way to middle of my rear! OMG I was one giant muscle cramp on the right side. I got it…

Since all my talk the last couple of days has been about my lower body I thought I would keep it going. I grabbed a pair of shorts this morning and then realized I had grabbed them from the no longer fits me pile. Tried them on and THEY FIT! Woo! I think I only…

It’s funny because this conversation has come up in different situations a couple of times in the last week. When someone says my cancer has spread to my {insert vital organ} I feel so bad for them. I don’t want to say anything to them because I feel like their situation is so bad that…

This is a view of my neighbors house (sort of) from my back deck. As you can see the are very close. 40 feet? There is a stockade fence between us. The have lived there about 2 years? Maybe less. It’s a man and a woman. I have spoken to them a couple of times…

I’ve had thoughts about this before but I don’t think I’ve ever tried to put it in print. Sometimes I think about common ideas and what would happen if they were suddenly proven wrong or an idea that just no one had thought of before. For instance – what if it was suddenly and unexpectedly…

I had an amazing idea for a story and for a post. Sadly it was stolen by the sandman. The nice thing about condo life is when you have a package with a signature required being delivered and you won’t be home but your neighbor will. A quick note on the door tomorrow should solve…

I’m angry today. It’s my low chemical day which makes me cranky. Usually I am a quiet kind of cranky during chemo week but today I am starting to feel ragey. I’ve been thinking about it all day and trying to really narrow in on what is going on. I have figured out what is…