Somehow in my little summer chemo break I completely blocked out 4 years of Kadcyla side effects. Four weeks ago when I got chemo and then spent 7 days not feeling well I thought, fluke. So last week when I went again and SURPRISE got sick again I was just sad.
Hopefully today, day 8, will bring some normalcy to my body. It’s so frustrating because I work so hard to keep my body fit and strong but I just cannot overcome the actual physical effects of medicine going into my body. My brain just thinks I’m doing something wrong. If I change this, or stop doing that, I will be able to compensate, counter-balance and control it.
Every day I wake up and make a plan. I will do this. I will take care of things. I will do what I need to do. And then by ten o’clock in the morning I am done. I have used up my limited supply of energy. Once the physical energy is gone, so is the mental. I just get tired of fighting every day.
Of course in a few more days I will have forgotten everything you see above and start all over. 🙂
I decided to try and knit a pullover. This I one.
I had some of the yarn and ordered the rest. I made it through the two side panels and one sleeve before I ran out of yarn. FedEx is holding the rest of my yarn hostage. I have received 4 out of 6 missing packages so they are working on it. In the meantime my daughter asked me to make her a vest. So I ordered the yarn for that. It was shipped FedEx SmartPost instead of regular FedEx. It should be here today or tomorrow. But in the meantime because I was suddenly sitting with nothing to do while too sick to run around, I started a new pair of socks using a different pattern and method.
This means there is a good chance that I will have to make a decision in the next week because I will have three projects going at once. I will be stuck. I will want to finish all of them at once. I just don’t have that many hands. It is one of the things I don’t do.. I don’t have multiple projects going. It’s like having too much choice of food in the house, it makes me stuck.
Halloween Nails. Within days of going back on my chemo meds two of my nails are just disintegrating so I am working to get them better.
This is a very un-Tracy look but you gotta use them up!
I keep getting free strips from companies and they send me the craziest ones! Yesterday I got a black with Gold Glitter. Definitely not something I would pick. I used a set of black and white strips a couple of weeks ago and was surprised by how much I liked the look.
I’m really going to try and leave the house today.