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I started a post and then deleted it. I try very hard to make sure that when I do or say something I do a deep dive into my motivation. This one was just on the borderline of using someone else’s story to elicit an emotion. So I’ll sit on it for awhile before I…

I, like I am assume the majority of people, learn best by doing. This whole fiber craft odyssey of the last two years has shown that more than anything else in my life. Knitting is all abbreviations when can be very intimidating when you are trying to learn.I decided to play with mitten patterns. So…

Anniversary. Today marks 7 years of a relationship that changed my life. 🙂 Seriously, my oncologist. The difference in the experience of my first oncologist and treatment versus my current oncological group is night and day. They just make everything easier. Snacks. For some reason last night I was thinking about childhood snacks and I…

I must have had strange dreams last night because I am all sortS of out of sorts today. I just want to go back to sleep. I added a new story on the writing page http://tracymurray.online/writing/ I had this idea popping around in my head but it wouldn’t fully flesh out so I just wrote…

While “researching”* scalene muscles I learned that it’s not uncommon for people with lung conditions to develop scalene problems. It’s because we stop breathing through our diaphragm and instead breath pushing out the top of the chest which pulls on the scalenes. Also people with TOC (which I have) also are prone to scalene issues.…

I have been in bed for the last 36 hours with a fever and headache, completely unable to function. I still have the fever and the headache but it feels at least a little manageable now. It started with the shakes on Friday night at 2:00 am. For 45 minutes I just shook. I’ve slept…

I woke up at ridiculous-not a real time – o’clock and could not fall back asleep! I couldn’t eat breakfast because my body has been very unpredictable the last couple of weeks and I had an oral surgeon appointment at 10:30. They yanked out my half a tooth in like five minutes but the bastard…

I am tired of feeling badFeeling bad makes me feel sadI am back to not being able to eatWhich makes me feel nothing but defeat I try so hard to be healthy and strongBut the chemo recovery is now taking so longI get a few good hours a day and then crashWhich would be okay…

So yay! Garmin all charged up, Boo!! NO energy!! I made it through all of my stretching but I only did 1 mile on the bike instead of three and it was a STRUGGLE! Today is all about eating and breathing. My oxygen levels are really down. I wonder if it’s got to do with…

There is a point during recovery week when I am both nauseated and starving. When all I want to do is eat but the thought of any type of food makes me queasy. Hmmmmm