Melancholic

Feeling or Expressing Pensive Sadness

I started feeling sad yesterday. A feeling of time getting away from me and feeling my normal positive outlook on just about everything.

I know the cause and that fact that it is semi-avoidable makes it worse. I have been feeling SO GOOD the last couple of weeks. Strong and healthy (except for allergies – yay white fuzzies flying through the air and my ugly looking blood work on Thursday) and almost ready to take on anything. Except chemo.

I skipped my last chemo to let my body heal and get stronger again, as I do a few times a year. And I think it worked too well. I feel like today has my last hours of feeling good. Sigh….

I will be fine, I always am. But I do not want to do anything that takes up time today, I am even skipping my beloved Monday Mahjong 🀄️.

Have a pretty rhododendron to end on a nice note!

Also – I have recently discovered that I have never ready Catcher in the Rye. I will rectify that.