Writing / Speaking / Owning my Truth

“We both have Truths, are mine the same as yours?”*

A popular phrase in the last years has been “Speaking your truth”. In my house this usually elicits a loud vocal response from my husband. Something along the line of “truth is truth, you can’t have your own truth”. Last night watching, or reading something I suddenly thought I would like someone to know my truth. It surprised me. I am pretty sure I have never used that phrase before. It made me stop and think about what it meant for me.

We spend so much of our lives being socially acceptable and hiding our true feelings that it becomes second nature. We (I) don’t talk about some things that might upset other people, or upset myself if I’m honest. So for me speaking my truth would be talking about the things that we just don’t talk about.

I have tried in the past to write it in private blogs. No one will ever see them there, well really that is assured now since 5 years of blogging disappeared! So many memories documented and gone. 🙁 I have never really been able to put it all out on paper though. It’s just too hard after so long of being only 80% of myself. When I think about it the main reason I want to is because of my daughter. I want her to always be able to speak and I think it’s dishonest to have things that I think about that I don’t talk about. Which, I am sure most people are happy I don’t talk about everything I think about because I talk more than enough as it is!

It’s funny reading back over those paragraphs, this is a light and nothing post, but in my head, it is much deeper.

*Bonus if you know where that line is from!