to talk
These days because it feels like I just keep saying the same thing over and over again.
I have some extra medical issues going on which I think is probably an explanation for why I feel so defeated and blah. Today is Monday and I had/am having the worse chemo recovery that I have had in a while.
Eight to ten hours of fever usually hits day 2 or 3, but the fevers are lasting longer and it makes me exhausted and weak. My fever started on Saturday and went all though Sunday into today.. I went to bed at 6:30pm yesterday and spent 14 hours waking up every 30 minutes or so with the achey fevery’ness. About 10 this morning it started to feel a little better. Today is all about hydrating and eating.
Sucks.
Also I was afraid to look at the world today in case part of it was gone. I live in a flight path of military jets that go for maintenance and it has brought a whole new kind of anxiety that I have not had before.
See, this is why I stopped writing! Man, I am depressing. By tomorrow I will probably be much closer to happy Tracy but today, I wallow.
I read The Girl with the Pearl Earring last week expecting a great novel. I did not enjoy it. I do not enjoy books with central characters that are never given whole personalities.
I still cannot use my right arm normally and it is pissing me off something fierce!!!
My husband flew to LA today and for the first time in a long time I thought about what would happen if something terrible happened in the world and he was stuck there with no way home.
The good news is I am getting my hair trimmed and colored on Wednesday. I really hate getting my hair done, it’s the forced sitting for a prolonged period so I have four inches of hair that is 7 shades darker than the rest. It is not attractive 🙂
Okay – I think I am done! I will try to be more chipper next time!
~~~~~doh… North Carolina, not Los Angeles
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