Author: T Murray
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Well
What should we talk about today? Should we start with the fact that there is a very large cat in my chair so I have had to sit in Mr. Murrays chair and in this chair my feet do not touch the ground? I have been feeling extra good this last week and a few…
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Rock-a-bye Baby
I WISH! Did I tell you I am seeing a sleep doctor next week? I am not really expecting much since I was referred for sleep apnea but oh my goodness what if I got good sleep even just a majority of the time? I could rule the world! Showed up at the oncologist yesterday…
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Nothing Compares
2U I really am trying to connect with the world again. It feels like I have been in a bubble for years. It is so much easier to just be silent than to make plans and have to cancel or to have to explain why even though most of me is healthier than it has…
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I have put a lot of disgusting things in mouth
But last nights was so bad I think I had nightmares about it. And the smell….like really strong garlic bologna that sat in the sun before the picnic. I am also definitely having a height problem. If I put it on the floor Frank will definitely try and use it as a scratching post but…
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Scrub A Dub Dub
I wish I was in a Pub That is a lie, I do not, I have not had alcohol in 7 months and I do not like crowds. But it was a good rhyme! If you have carpet or in my case large rugs and animals go ahead and spend the $150 buy a heated…
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You can’t always control the wind, but you can control your sails.
-Dr. Bob Chope My sleep was the tiniest bit better last night so I am holding onto the hope that we are almost done with this particular cycle of insomnia. HOWEVER – I fucking woke up in AFIB! Okay, that was an overly dramatic way of saying it. It was either pretty mild or I…
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Car
Ranky I am averaging six hours and eleven minutes of very interrupted sleep a night for the last 8 days.* I have dropped into REM sleep three nights and each time had anxiety dreams. Not nightmares per se, just unpleasant and filled with anxiety .I do not know why, and I do not like it.…
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A Fountain
I overflow with leaves that are slowly deteriorating I took care of a few chores today so now I am reading. I have been slowly reading a scary book. Slowly because I just was not finding the right circumstances to read. When I read I do not listen to music. I like to immerse myself…
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Blurry Life
Blurry Face Some days my vision is blurrier than others. Age? Tired eyes? Cataracts? I keep reading things incorrectly. My hearing is also blurry. I hear but the words do not always make sense. Just like listening to the wrong language. Sometimes my face is blurry too. When I am tired or dehydrated. So it…
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Smaug
There be dragons! I had another Afib episode last night and it made me mad! My brain gets very angry when I cannot, if not control, at least understand why something is happening. I had some flutters (cardiologist word, not mine) late evening then later after being asleep for about 30 minutes woke up in…